Ramblings
» Why'd I Close My Site?
I keep pondering over why exactly I closed my previous site earlier this year, but I keep telling myself that it was all for the better. I don’t know–It’s just that lately I’ve been having mixed feelings about it, as though the whole reason for my decision hinged on the fact that I’d gotten tripped up in a moment where I was too busy.
Now I’ve learned that “I’m too busy” is no reason to close a site. Although being busy is a legitimate reason for not updating, ultimately, after a person puts so much effort into something that is responsible for so much satisfaction, it just wouldn’t be right to tear it all away. No one deserves having all of their hard work destroyed, even if the website owner does it on purpose.
Or maybe I’m just blowing it out of proportion.
Now that I examine the situation more closely, the act of deleting my own site was necessary. It was necessary for myself. I had to break free of this small mold into which I’d put so much of my work. I don’t know if anyone else had noticed this when my site was still up, but I personally noticed that all of my work was basically the same. At that time, I was only focusing on quantity–no quality at all. It wasn’t me; I was never expressing myself. I was only confined to this site where I made dozens of little things that I’d half-heartedly thrown together.
I guess destroying the site was a good thing then. I’m slowly realizing that although my reasoning for deleting the site was unsatisfactory, the act itself turned out to be alright after all. But…where’s the lesson in this muddle of thoughts?
The lesson is this: In everything you do, do it to the best of your ability.
Had I followed that rule in the first place, I would probably have been a lot happier.